Keep on truckin on

A lots happened lately and a lot of it has been the furthest thing from easy or pain free. I feel like it needs to be acknowledged because what's the point of having this thing if al that's ever on here is happy? And I'm sick of pretending that everything is picture perfect because folks....sometimes life gets ugly. And life for us these past few months has been super ugly. I think it was a time for Andy and me when "life" as a whole got the best of us. We've had a lot of loss this year and we've had a very chaotic and challenging time these past 3 1/2 years. We got worn down and pulled away from each other. I say this because we're both extremely hurt, sad, and embarassed. It shouldn't have happened and we should have stuck together and huddled together through the rough patch and we let each other down. It finally came to a head about a month ago when we both had just had enough of living this way. While we can move on from it I hope we learn something too. Andy and I have learned a lot already and hopefully will continue to do so. We learned that we still truly love each other very much and our biggest downfall was that we simply stopped showing it and we stopped taking care of each other. We stopped being ourselves. It was like cardboard cutouts of us and what fun is that? Mending this family is going to be a bumpy road. But I'm glad to be on this journey with my Andy and I'm glad we have the most amazing kids to share together. I know lots of people face these challenges and keep them quiet but I'm not one of those people because I think everyone needs to talk about how it is so they don't feel so alone in this world. And I knew I needed to start blogging again because our families miss the pictures but there was no way I knew how to start it up again without acknowledging this very significant time in our lives in some way first. So there it is. Dirty laundry is aired. It's been acknowledged and now....lets start having some freaking fun again!

Mason's in his "big boy" bed now. He'd rather sleep with Ava but he does pretty good at staying in there. He likes going to sleep listening to music.

Typical boy....pulling off his cutsie decor in his room. Thanks, dude!

At Oktober Fest

There was a ballon guy there that stole Mason's heart

Ava's been super into art lately. She's really good at it too and wants to go to painting class. I just have to find one that recognizes some people work and can't go on a Tuesday at 10am. :)